!@%#$*$()#*@!!

having a mini-breakdown right now.

it is 12:12 AM and about an hour and a half ago i did a stupid thing.

a very, very stupid thing!!

my sweetheart of a hubby bought me a new computer for our anniversary 

in august because as you can see in the picture below, 

mine was getting to be a bit of a dinosaur...

 i hadn't synched anything to it yet because of the fear of possibly losing everything on my phone...

welllll.......

for some silly reason, i decided to try it because i thought i had it 

all figured out so that nothing would get lost.

turns out i was wrong.

apparently there were some errors. 

due to these errors, in the past hour i have:

cried

said a few suggestive words

realized my headache actually could get bigger than it already was tonight

felt very sorry for myself

and turned to vanilla wafer cookies and a diet coke for comfort. 

(which helped....slightly...)

after a few tries, i may be able to save it with an old backup

on my old computer. thank heavens!!

ahhh...so sorry for the vent sesh (for the second time this week!)

but i feel slightly better now. and really didn't have much else to do while sitting here staring at my screen, crossing all fingers and toes. 

talk about some serious "spoiled kid" problems going on here.

people in africa are starving and i'm whining about my iphone not hooking up to my new laptop and possibly deleting my instagram. 

so with that said. i am going to buck up. get over it. and know that life will go on. 
with or without instagram.